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4 am Lullaby
02:01
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The moon is watching you from the sky
Slowly waltzing in circles
Nothing frightening can reach that far
Where all the pain is encircled
Oh lucky, lucky moon
Oh lucky, lucky moon
You´re merely watching us building walls
Isolation is certain
Masquerading ourselves as dolls
Hiding lives behind curtains
Oh lucky, lucky moon
Oh lucky, lucky moon
Please come down and save me from the
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2. |
Edge Between
04:14
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Starry eyes lamb
Hand in hand running through forgotten lands
Making wishes burning bridges
Living on the edge between the earth and the universe
Blue lights, parasites
Chaotic cities burning from the ground
They were running from their lives
Filled with lies and lacking light
On the edge between the earth and the universe
They´d stayed contradicting their rage
All frayed, pieces of skin sown together
A desperate attempt to mimic a whole
Staring through a filled-up glass or two
Praying for forgiveness
Climbing wallpaper, fingernails sinking into the bedroom door
Crawling underneath the carpet, melting through the floor
They were stuck on the edge between the earth and the universe
Starry eyed you try to understand
But there´s no looking back until you’re through this no-man’s land
To break the spell, you tried to sell your soul
And now you´re stuck in a place where you don´t belong
Mommy’s proud she is holding you tight
A whisper in your ears of how hard she has tried
But there is nothing left to do
There is nothing she can do
This time you can´t break free
Climbing wallpaper, fingernails sinking into the bedroom door
Crawling underneath the carpet, melting through the floor
They were stuck on the edge between the earth and the universe
Starry eyes you’re waiting for a change
Hands together praying for a way
But no one´s listening your screaming turns to whispering
Banished to the edge between the earth and the universe
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I am stuck inside a house without windows
On the fifth floor in a post war atmosphere
I am stuck inside a circus leaving breadcrumbs in circles
Strings attached to every finger, every thought
I am locked inside a building without stairways
On the fifth floor, no sense to care for the outside world
I am stuck inside a circus, watching lions feed on my carcass
Ripping limbs off, by tearing strings off
I need a ringing bell
to cancel out the noise
I need to disappear
I need to disappear
I need a ringing bell
to cancel out the noise
I need to disappear
I need to disappear
I am only alive inside a world I created
On the fifth day of this “child´s play reality”
I am tied to something untrue, a tangled world-view
But there´s a glitch in my system, an answer is missing, a number in the code wasn´t written
You got me thinking I committed a crime staying up after bedtime
That every little sign you drew the line to disobedience was dangerous
Cause you are stronger, you are older you are taller, you are bolder, you are wiser, more courageous, you´re productive and devoted, independent and forgiving, you´re a leader, an achiever, you´re competitive, inventive and you´re smart. And I am just a devil with a heart
I need a ringing bell
to cancel out the noise
I need to disappear
I need to disappear
I need a ringing bell
to cancel out the noise
I need to disappear
I need to disappear
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4. |
Blood in the Sky pt.1
03:31
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I always try to make it easier to feel and easier to not feel anything
Assigning body parts to point at, one for every emotion, but I ran out of skin
I always try to make it easier to explain and easier to not feel the need
Dedicating types of breathing, always heaving, running out of air
So I try to stop
Counting seconds and emotions, running descriptions and compulsions through my head
I try to stop memorizing colours and prescriptions and songs that make me question my existence
There´s blood in the sky
Not falling like rain
It´s spreading through space
replacing every atom in the atmosphere
How can you dare to be free?
How can you dare to be free?
There´s a sickness in the clouds
Not reaching for the ground
Its eating at the blue
Blinding you with anger
Aggravating nonsense, noises filling your subconscious
Winding down, it knows you´re screwed
Cause you´ve been overtaken by thrill of
Ecstasy you feel when you have
Lost control, you´ve trashed your home, and broken every one you said you loved
Looking at the havoc that you caused, you know you´re through
Losing track of all that is true
Who´s asking “How can you dare to be You
When there´s blood in the sky?”
I always try to make it easier to remember and easier to not
Assigning memories and thoughts to blemishes and spots, one for every finger that ever touched my skin, but I ran out before I even could begin
I always try to rationalize, justify and glamorize your violence addiction, your need to poison my conviction that I am as much of a human as you are
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5. |
Flowers
04:14
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Please wake up
Please wake up
Pinch your cheeks, get on your feet
We have a life to live
I can´t even keep a plant alive
So I stick wires in their stems
Forcing them to look revived
I don´t have time to water
I don’t have time to open windows let them breathe
Or call the doctor I watch them seethe
I watch them tumbling in slow motion
Leaves covering my window sill reminding me that I could still
Give them what they need
But I don’t
This songs about flowers
I don’t write about myself anymore
But I do have a new soul to break in
I have a new soul to break in
I have a new soul, a new soul to break in
I have a new soul to break in
Mold it to tailor to trespassers
I have a new soul to break in
I broke the last one
There was a marionette
Following your fingertips
You could lift them by their hair
Place them they´re complacent
Eat them up digest them
Through them up and rearrange them
Twist their head around
Hang them upside down
And they would still
Never even feel the urge to kill
I promised
To stop painting your picture I need to move on
But I´ve latched onto every word
You told me
Their roots are still burrowing deeper relentlessly
I believe you
I´m not enough on my own
But maybe I´ll be perfect if I´m part of something whole
So make me a part of you
Stick wires in my stems
I´ll follow your fingertips, I´ll follow you
I wish that this could be the end
While I have a new soul to break in
I have a new soul to break in
I have a new soul, a new soul to break in
I have a new soul to break in
Mold it to tailor to trespassers
I have a new soul to break in
Cause I broke the last one
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6. |
Look at Me
03:30
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Look at me
Smiling with my teeth
Look at my washed-out cheeks
And my falling kind of walking
Look at me
Moving like I´m free
Acting like I´m fully me
Smiling with my teeth
Smiling with my
Blood shot eyes
Short cut lies
Look at my wise disguise
A devil wearing makeup like a clown
clown
A devil wearing chaos like a crown
Drown
Drown my voice
Just like you drowned my choice
Surpress your childrens screams
But Listen for any exposing quivers
Feel my laughter
Trickling
Down your spine
Nothing too borderline
About a devil wearing makeup like a clown,
Clown
A devil wearing chaos like a
Look at me, smiling
Look at my memories piling
More to forget
Just more to forget
A devil wearing chaos like a crown
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You grew up without me
How could you have known I stayed behind
When you never move your eyes away from what´s in front of you
Sink your teeth into anything that could take you away from our reality
You push your way through unconsciousness with all your senses closed
And I am left to carry all the traumas you´ve disposed of
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
You built your body without me
And I was left in your shell of buttons and change
Roses and change
Make the armor keeping me together
It keeps me inside of the barricade that your built around us
I´m not afraid of having my thoughts spilling out of my head
but you made sure they couldn´t be spread
and now I´m left to carry all the traumas that you fled
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
I´ll turn it to a game
Chase you chasing reins
There´s nothing that could shock me in your twisted state of shame
I´m not scared of fighting thoughts
Getting lost in your maze of knots
There´s nothing that could scare me in. your twisted state of pain
I´ll gladly bear the burden of your relics and your chains
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
(I´ll carry the memories)
(They are your enemies)
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8. |
Have we Met?
02:27
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Have we met before?
I think I know you
I know your
Captivating complications
Devastating calculations
Have we met before?
I think I´ve known you
Have I felt alive
I think I felt it
Before the
Captivating isolation
Suffocating liberation
Did I feel alive?
I think Ive felt it
Have I been myself
Since I met you?
Since the
Captivating detonation
Liberating devastation
Have I met myself
Since I´ve been you?
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9. |
Halt!
04:10
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Small talk, air blocks, free fall, help, Halt!
There´s someone else inside my head
I´ve been drinking, smoking, thinking
Is that a crime?
Hating, waiting, unbreaking every broken bone in my left hand, every nerve I pulled out of my chest, while you were tying me up
Every day I scrape away skin, spots, knots and thoughts
It´s just a game we play, a gunpoint ballet
Rearranging words in my mouth
To fit your reality
Your threats they showcased the panic in check mate when someone new is making demands
You were losing control, your kingdom exposed as what it was, a lie, a sadistic little playground for your
Testing, wrestling, protesting the hollers of my hollow empty inside
After living off an engine
Silencing the screaming for a break
I won´t break
Every day I fall astray fighting your deceptive blaze
It´s just a bold display of our fake array
Provocative because I won´t buy your authority
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
Call me a clown
I´m already down
I´m not scared of laughter
I´m not scared of chains
I´not scared of cages
Im not scared of names
Every day I sort away the memories that clogs up my brain
It´s just self-defense, it´s common sense
To rearrange the words in my mind
To make you disappear
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10. |
Violent Mess
01:42
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Why are you doing this?
Are your memories glitching too?
Why are you piercing through?
Do you have scratch marks on your flesh like I do?
Are you a violent mess?
Crawling through distress?
Is your strength eclipsed by the sickness by the blue?
Answer me moon
Answer me moon
Answer me moon
Answer me moon
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11. |
Your Clown
03:58
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I am floating above my head
And my feet are digging their way through the ground
My body´s stuck
And my mind has had enough
I don’t want to be your clown anymore
I don’t want to be your clown anymore
I don’t want to be your clown anymore
I don’t want to be your clown, clown, clown
I swallowed the keys to my cage but I know I´ll get out
I don’t care if you believe me
I´ll rip them out of my chest
I´ll find my way out the door
I´ll shoot a hole through the floor
I´ll tear myself out of the costume you glued to my skin
I´ll get out of my skin
Cause I don’t want to be your clown anymore
I don’t want to be your clown anymore
I don’t want to be your clown
I don´t want to be your clown
There´s no way you could contain me
I´ve escaped every cell
You can´t restrain me
I´ll be the chain round your neck
I´ll be the pain in your chest
I´ll be the shame that you pray you could forget
But I won´t be your clown anymore
I won´t be your clown anymore
I won´t be your clown anymore
I won´t be your clown
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12. |
Blood in the Sky pt.2
02:19
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There´s a crack in our foundation
A five-story building built on bones that weren´t grown yet
Of course, they couldn´t hold the weight
You should be more surprised
This prison stands
It has to be worth it
The tears and the panic attacks in this waiting room
It will be worth it soon
I can´t keep holding up a wall that might not even fall
If I let go
I´m tired of metaphors
Rhymes remorse just reinforcing
Every lie I´ve told to keep myself from asking million-dollar questions
Leaving no more room for seconds
Every moment´s to be filled
I document my breathing
Chronicles of heaving
I´m so tired of synonyms
Dictionaries doctored hymns
I don´t want to read another word I´ve written
Ever again
They don´t make any sense
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13. |
5 am Lullaby
04:08
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The moon is watching you from the sky slowly waltzing in circles
Nothing frightening can reach that far
Where all the pain is encircled
Oh lucky, lucky moon
Oh lucky, lucky moon
The clown on the fifth floor
with dynamite in their core
Chasing glitters in the air
hunting monsters in their underwear
oh baby don´t be scared
the clown is locked up there
The Clown on the Fifth Floor
With their insides upside-down
Has a guard to guide their thoughts
A shadow to contain the rot
oh baby don´t be scared
the clown is locked up there
You´re merely watching us building walls, isolation is certain
Masquerading ourselves as dolls
Hiding lives behind curtains
Oh lucky, lucky moon
Oh lucky, lucky moon
The clown on the fifth floor
ran out of doors
and someone covered
their windows in cement
oh baby don´t be scared
the clown is locked up there
But we´ll be fucked, if the fifth floor falls
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Storm Dunder Stockholm, Sweden
Storm Dunder is a non-binary songwriter, producer, and artist who creates art that embody what they have spent their life trying to escape. They build momentary realities and sew bodies for the impalpable to channel the most free, fragile, brutal, glorious, and grotesque parts of their inner life. ... more
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